Around this time, I would have met you.
I knew this time would eventually come, but now that it’s here, it feels different.
For a little while, you were a part of my life.
I knew you were there.
And from that moment, something in me changed.
There were so many thoughts, so many emotions, and so much I didn’t know yet.
But one thing I knew was that you mattered to me.
Life had different plans for us. Maybe it simply wasn’t the right time for us to meet.
But that didn’t mean I forgot you.
Months passed. Life continued. I worked, travelled, laughed, made plans and went back to being myself.
Then one day, I was sitting in church.
Church has always made me feel peaceful. It’s one of those places where everything becomes quiet for a while.
And that day, I prayed for you.
I asked God to take care of you and keep you safe.
And I asked Him that, if the time is ever right, somehow, you find your way back to me.
I don’t know if life works like that.
But I hope it does.
I hope some souls are simply meant to meet at a different time.
Until then, I’m doing what I promised myself I would do.
I’m building my life.
I’m working hard.
I’m trying to become stronger.
I’m trying to create the kind of life where one day, when the time is right, I can give you the love, care and life I always wanted for you.
And now here we are.
Around the time I would have met you.
I thought reaching this point would make me sad.
And yes, there is sadness.
But there is also love.
And strangely, there is hope.
Because I don’t want to think of you only as something I lost.
I like to think of you as someone I just didn’t get to meet yet.
Maybe that’s how my heart has learned to carry you.
Not as a goodbye.
Just…
not yet.
So today, I’m thinking of you.
And wherever you are, I hope you’re safe.
I hope God is taking care of you.
And if souls really do find their way back to us, then find me again when the time is right.
I’ll be waiting.
Hopefully a little wiser, a little stronger, and with the life I wanted to build for us.
Until we meet again.
Falhaven 